What should I do?

It is about one month away from YX's 1st birthday. We are still looking for possible venues to hold her party.. I have not order her cake too.. Could not decide to order from which bakery and what design to have..

I had received a call from my previous company. Now I have a chance to go back to work.. Officially.

I want to but I am scared at the same time..
I want to help out with B, it had been really tough for him, to be shouldering all the burden.
My property career is all right but could be better..
Next year's projection is that it is going to be even tougher..
B is right. How much more will I be able to gain back? Given my level now..

Going back will be easy way for me.. I am scared still. Scared to be starting over again. Scared to be in charge. Scared to face the challenges.

And very reluctant to leave my girl.
She will be learning to walk and to talk and so much more.. When I think about the fact that I got to miss all these, my heart ache.
Money cant buy such joy and time..

Which is why I do not mind the new scheme they have. I can come back to my family, my girl more often, I hope.

Why is it so difficult for me? There are so many successful stories, so many flying mummies around whom I can learn from. And yet I find it real hard to take it easy.

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