My friends are getting married next year. Three pairs! I think I gotta start saving for their presents as soon as possible. It's great news. I am really happy for them. Something to look forward to..

Our minds are really very strong tools in our body. It can make a person change his/her mood within seconds.
I think I am not feeling very good again. My mood swings from good to bad very easily these days. Sometimes i feel like I wanna start all over again. I am tired of my life now. Then when this happen, I will remind myself that I am doing well now. Better than many others. What more can I ask for? I am so greedy. I am sick of myself.

Have I really turn bad? I used to be so careful with my words because I did not want to offend people. Then I learnt that you can not please everyone.
Now, I am said to be bad. I just feel that I had grown to know what is right and wrong. I do not follow blindly now. And I voice out my concerns.
Maybe you are right. I should not be affected by people not related to me. It'a their life. I should keep my trap shut from now on.

Have to pick my parents from the airport later.. They just came back from holidays. They went hong kong and beijing. It is cheaper to travel to china from hong kong now. I am glad my mum got her chance to visit the Great Wall of China. maybe next year then I will bring her to somewhere else. She always wanted to go Seoul. Maybe next year...

It's still too early to get prepared now. I think I should go relax abit 1st.. Hehe..

it's so quiet..

I had been on the A380. It is big, but not that big. It is very passenger-friendly. The seats are new and comfortable, the entertainment system is new. And it is really quiet. Unlike the other aircrafts. I just found out that it costs 15 000 australian dollars to travel in the suite class to and fro Sydney. That's alot of money. Those people must be really rich.

not feeling good..

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed... Feeling very down and depressed.. I can't say why. Everything seems to be not going smoothly.. Going away for one week.. Hope I can leave everything behind when I leave the house later.. Else it will be a miserable week for me.. :`(

never good enough...

i'm too lazy... giving myself time off so often. wasting my time..... never good enough....

Some updates..

I'm a new person..

I had just done my lasik surgey for my right eye yesterday, and my left on the day before. I am happily enjoying my 'rescued' eyesight now. My eyesight is still not stablized yet, it will take three to six months maybe. People with perfect eyesight will never be able to understand the feeling. It is a relieve.

A month ago, I removed my four wisdom teeth as well. All at a go. I do not want to go through it again. I was lucky. I did not suffer much pain after my removal and my wounds heal within three days. In fact I was happily eating on the very next day. My left chin swelled a little and then it bruised. The bruises took longer to disappear.

Now, I am like a new person. Am feeling good but not happy yet.

Am I asking for too much?

upset..

Two people in my life are facing problems.. Major relationship problems. I really have no idea how to help them or console them.. I can totally feel what they are experiencing. It is very horrible. You can really feel your heart pain, literally. And I am not kidding. You feel very low and sad and angry. At loss.. Things do not go the way it should be. When another person is involved, you just do not know how to handle.. I can only say that communication is the key. Of course, it is easier said than done. How to handle your own emotions and also have the other party's feelings in mind? Because no one is a mind-reader. You can only pass the message out by talking. Explain your point of view. What if the other party is not willing to talk? Is that the end? Ah... How? Both parties must put in effort to make things work.

I hope things get better for them real soon.

scared...

Just went to dentist and he gave me a check - I need to take out my wisdom teeth, all 4 and fast. The bottom two are growing out in an angle which is pushing my other molar teeth. I will need to go for surgery to take them out. Ahh.. I had heard of frightening experiences and I am relly not too excited by it. It seems like I do not have any choice as they are causing cavity on my other teeth. I am scared. Furthermore, the surgery is only partial anaesthetics, that's the scariest. BTW, why are they called wisdom teeth? I wonder..

is it normal?

I am always not satisfied of myself. Is that normal? I think I am normal as it is very common, especially for women, to be unhappy about their appearance. Same with me. The problem with me: I always want to be a catwalk model, so I am not tall enough. I used to be proud of my legs but now, I am hiding them most of the time. I admit that I am too lazy and tired to exercise them, but I am always on my feet. I do not sit around in offices, since my job requires me to be on my feet all the time. So why aren't they toned? My legs are too big for my frame. How I wish I can shift the excess to somewhere else and put them into better use. *Grins*. I realise that my fingers are not pretty. They are not those ladies' fingers. My best pal, Janice, has very nice and long fingers, unlike mine.

Sad isn't it? When there are so many less fortunate people suffering worse fate and I am complaining here. Okay, I will try to minimise my ranting and get something done instead.

Late last night, I went to Ang Mo Kio Hub to show support to my friends. They were performing at a pub-like place name 'Scarlet City'. Tuesday is the Japanese theme. It's located near the cinema in the hub, on the highest level. The place was quite nicely furnished, to our surprise. As it's a neighbourhood, we did not expect to find such a place. Sad to say, the place was deserted. There were only three tables, and all occupied by friends of the band. The pub's servers outnumbered it's customers. Maybe the concept is wrong.

it's been a long time..

I was browsing through my folders and came across the pictures that I took together with a few of my bestest pals. Kind of miss those crazy times we had. Hardly enjoyed myself as much these days when I am abroad. I wonder how Roy is doing now, and Michelle in Germany, and Selina and her baby. It's like so near yet so far. Everyone's busy with their life now. It was fun.




the silly and fun things we did..



I just went to moscow.. Hopefully I am able to get the photos and put them up soon.. Anyway, I will be visiting again.. Maybe.. Haha..

Happi...

I just received a call from Janice that she's coming back tomorrow night. I was worried for a moment as I thought something bad had happened, and she had to come back immediately. Actually, it's just that she have five days off that's why she's coming home. Phew!! Yeah, she's coming home. And I'm having my leave this week so we can hang out together.

I was sorting out the old documents in my pc and I came across projects done when I was in school. Apparently I do not really understand what they were about. I had 'returned' them to my lecturers. Opps.. That's pretty sad. I am now trying to figure how to use MS Access to do a database.

In the meantime, I can't wait for Janice to get back. See that smirk on my face? I am really happy...

i must be hardworking. otherwise kana nagged again..

It's over...

Today is 3rd of June. Jinu's wedding day was yesterday. We were her jie meis. I reached her place at 5.30 in the morning. The groom came to pick the bride at 7am. We just had to play hard-to-get. This only happen once in your lifetime. It was fun. My 1st time being so involved in the preparation of a wedding. It's really alot of planning and work. Jinu's husband is very nice. A good sport. Though there had been a few hiccups, everything went well. The reception ended early and we stayed back to relax and enjoyed the suite at Ritz. The hotel's service is really good. Since it was Xiaohui's birthday as well, we had a small celebration for her too. With a beautiful bride and in a beautiful hotel with beautiful scenery, we all had a wonderful time.

I was so tired that I fell asleep immediately. When I woke up this morning, my whole body was aching. I am getting old...

Going for the wedding dinner later. No need to do help out today. Just go and enjoy the dinner.

Tomorrow I will be going to frankfurt. Hopefully everything goes well.

I wanna go back again...

Went seoul over the weekend. I had my longest stay in Seoul so far. Really wish I have more time... Didnt manage to go to the places that I wanted to go.. Have not visited Dongdaemum, no time for Myeong-dong and itaewon. Only minimal shopping was done. Bought seaweed only..

Hope to go back there soon..

i passed by a church one night and it had a banner " What are you here for?". Makes me wonder.. What is the purpose of life to everyone of us now? have you ever wonder? if you're living in ancient time, how will you live your life? have your found the aim in your life? are you moving and progressing in that direction? so many questions. yet no answers at all.

finally met up with joel and cj in mel. sorry guys, i was really tired when i reached mel. maybe it's bcos i did not sleep much the night b4. it was nice seeing you guys though.

Janice celebrated her birthday yesterday, before she goes to Abu Dabi tomorrow. She had organized a bbq near her place, and invited her friends and relatives. It was quite last minute preparation but everything went quite well. I think most importantly, it did not rain and the weather was just nice. I think everyone had fun eating and chatting.

I went to look for cargo bag with her the night before yesterday. We went mustafa late at night. They really have everything all under the same roof. It's quite a good place to shop at night. Some things are cheaper but some are not. After almost 3- 4 hours of strainess choosing, we managed to find one durable and affordable bag. I hope that bag is enough for her. Afterall, she is moving there for dunno how long. Sure she have many things to bring over.

I went shopping yesterday, managed to buy a pair of slip-ons. Looked around for a new bag but I cant seem to find anything tat I like.. Luckily had my new slip-ons to cheer me up.. Haha.. When I was shopping, my best pal rang me and told me that she will be going over to Abu Dabi earlier, about 2 weeks earlier than planned. That makes it next week. She actually planned to spend her birthday back home here then go over. However, her colleagues-to-be are going over sooner. At least when she leaves for her new job in Abu Dabi, she is not going there alone.

Since you had decided to work there, you must hang on and overcome all the difficulties which you are going to face. It will not be easy, but nothing is. Work very hard for these 2-3 years and save up. We are still young. Don't go for too long as well. Just make full use of your time. By the time you can come back. you can start your own business and be lau ban niang.

Knowing that I am gonna to miss her, the consoling fact is that I can go look for her anytime. Technology is very advanced too. We can chat over the net and also use 3G. And also we can meet up overseas and go sight seeing together. I think that will be great. :)

spend time wisely..

I wanna take up something to learn... I am not really doing much now, always lazing around at home, wasting time. I think I dun really wan to go back to studies, so i better find some new skills. Perhaps I will take up cooking or make up, with more hands-on needed. I realised tat I have stopped reading as well. I used to go to the library to get novels to fill up my time. Seems like I need to go to a library real soon.

Some reflections:
I have become too lazy and comfortable and I stopped progressing. I need to find something tat will push me forward again. Otherwise, I can see myself in 5 years time - old, useless, poor and probably brainless. At tat time, ot will be too late and I have only myself to blame.

Even starting this blog had been a feat to me. I had returned everything tat I learnt about website and programming and html back to my lecturer. Please pardon me if this blog does not appeal to you.

Boring..

Two days and the cycle will begin again... I think I need new shoes and a new bag. But i am too lazy to shop for it. Must save money.. Not enough money.. Haha.. So silly.. Who will complain tat they have too much money???

all the best to you, my dear.

My best pal had made her decision, tat is to go to Abu Dhabi. i haven been there before but i guess it is not much different from Dubai, only less city-like. yes, i will go there and visit you from time to time. i will definitely bring stuff like food when i go visit you.

You are very brave, my dear. i would not have the courage to do that. i hope tat everything will turn out good for you. and of cos, if u need anything, jus give me a ring.

I hope it helps..

My memory's failing me... i dun remember things like i used to.. sometimes, i feel that it's a good thing. sometimes, i hate it. someone mentioned that i should write it down, things tat i want to remember. well, i'm starting from here. I really hope it helps..